Life crumbles....

You know, I truly did love my job. I saw the difference I was making. I was helping people and was a part of something bigger than myself. Then I lost my job. I was let go a little over a month ago. Why was I let go? The reasons I was given were transparent, falsehoods.
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I was told first that I was not seeing all of my clients. Clearly untrue - my reports and progress notes verified that. In fact, most of my clients were in group with me more than once a week.
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I was told that I was 2 months behind on my paperwork. I pulled up my progress notes and proved this to be untrue. Yes, some notes were late...but 2 months behind?? NOT!!
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I was told that because of the above reasons, the company was not able to bill Medicaid to receive payment for services...which, in turn, pays my salary. Untrue - billing could have been done. Medicaid does not require copies of my notes and my schedule showed my clients and their attendance. Besides, my clients were being seen and notes done.
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I was told that I was taking too much time off. I was given 2 weeks vacation when I hired in and had used 4 days.
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So, I was fired on a Friday. No notice...nothing. I was not able to have closing sessions with my clients, which is unethical. I never had any sort of disciplinary action taken against me to warn me that I was supposedly not meeting their standards. Then, it took 3 weeks to get my final paycheck, I was charged for a cellphone charger I had returned, and they did not pay out my remaining vacation time. They tried to fight my unemployment, but failed to do so.
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So, even though I knew and know I was in the right, the reality was......I was unemployed. Yes, I lost my mind for a while. I am still struggling to remain in control sometimes. I have cried and complained and had panic attacks. But reality remains. Life is not always fair and I am unemployed.
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Soon, and with a friend's help, I saw that I could not pay my bills on unemployment while looking for a job. So I had to move. I was living in a gorgeous house and was looking at buying it. Now I am living in a motel room that has a kitchenette. I am searching for work, but not having any luck.
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Right now, life sucks. Summer is gone. Fall may very well be over soon and the long winter will set in. And I sit here in my "efficiency apartment" [hotel room] with the dog and stare at tv. And type this....